What --? [Stunned as he is, Sylvain doesn't fight Felix pulling away. He regrets it immediately, not just because he knows he'll add to the doubt that his partner is feeling. He regrets it because there's no way to hide the way his face absolutely crumples.
His horrible reputation was his own fault, really? But it feels... especially vicious, when it's Felix who thinks he could do something like that. The realization curls around his vocal cords like a vice, a chilled hand strangling him and keeping him from saying anything more. It hurts, from his chest down to the tips of his toes, it hurts to hear Felix say that about him.
Deserved or not.]
You really think I would do that?
[His voice comes out as little more than a hushed whisper. It's all he can manage through the tightening of his throat. What had he said all along? That he didn't deserve Felix? And he'd been right. After all he had done, and for him to have the audacity to even think about Dimitri in that light.
This was exactly what he deserved. This was his Goddess given punishment.
He hardly realizes he's speaking again. He doesn't even know if Felix will hear it, with how soft it is.]
Why is it so hard to believe that I could love both of you?
[He wants to run. The soles of his feet itched with the need to pick up and flee the scene. Perhaps this time he could get far enough to not be caught by Dimitri. The last thing he wants is to see Dimitri right now.
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His horrible reputation was his own fault, really? But it feels... especially vicious, when it's Felix who thinks he could do something like that. The realization curls around his vocal cords like a vice, a chilled hand strangling him and keeping him from saying anything more. It hurts, from his chest down to the tips of his toes, it hurts to hear Felix say that about him.
Deserved or not.]
You really think I would do that?
[His voice comes out as little more than a hushed whisper. It's all he can manage through the tightening of his throat. What had he said all along? That he didn't deserve Felix? And he'd been right. After all he had done, and for him to have the audacity to even think about Dimitri in that light.
This was exactly what he deserved. This was his Goddess given punishment.
He hardly realizes he's speaking again. He doesn't even know if Felix will hear it, with how soft it is.]
Why is it so hard to believe that I could love both of you?
[He wants to run. The soles of his feet itched with the need to pick up and flee the scene. Perhaps this time he could get far enough to not be caught by Dimitri. The last thing he wants is to see Dimitri right now.
So he stays put.]